A little playlist to begin with:

1. Cheryl Cole – Parachute

2. Asaf Avidan & The Mojos – One Day Reckoning Song (Wankelmut Remix)

3. Nicole Scherzinger ft 50 Cent – Right There

4. Asher Roth ft New Kingdom and Busta Rhymes – Lion’s Roar

5. Passenger – Let Her Go

6. Ed Sheeran – Give Me Love (Live Room session)

7. Jonathan Clay – Heart On Fire

8. Rock Mafia – The Big Bang

9. My Chemical Romance – Na Na Na

10. Black Sabbath – Paranoid

11. Nirvana – Come As You Are

12. Maimon & The Mongoose Band – Clear Night

13. The Black Keys – I’m Not The One

14. The Amplifetes – Somebody New

15. Bruno Mars – Locked Out of Heaven

So these are my top 15 songs that I’ve been listening A LOT in 2012. I really had to do my best to narrow it down to 15 songs ’cause I maybe don’t know how to sing and play an instrument but  I do listen to music a LOT. When I wake up the first thing I do is put on my music and it’s also the last thing I do before bed. :) I have to be honest, this year… was the crappiest year of my life. So much happened to me and I’m still not over it or I don’t even know how to get out of all this mess. It’s not even something that I’m in control of like my actions or the things I say. It was simply a hell for me these past 12 months. Feeling weak and powerless… And useless but for me, above all, feeling average and not being able to be the best version of me was the worst feeling you can ever imagine… I have so little good memories of 2012 but I do cherish them and it’s all because of the people in my life that I’ve met and made it easier for me. :) My friends and loved ones : thank you for that. ( I guess this is also wonderful about blogging: no one is forced to read or watch something and everyone is free to do his own thing – sorry for this annoying bad-shitty-mood ‘peptalk’ ) I know it’s a cliché but without them, I think I would be in a much worse place than right now. So these songs actually bring up the really good memories of them and it’s definitely something to hold on to. I know it’s a little bit melodramatic but if you knew everything that I’ve been going trough, this actually gives me hope for a better future. It made me realize that nothing lasts forever so the bad things neither. So, even if I really do hate my life right now and feel like crying all the time, cheers to a fucking fresh, new year!  And I really hope that everyone is enjoying themselves right now and may the best be yet to come. You can kiss my derrière 2012.

Cheers! xoxo